back-words... how and why...

Tuesday, June 14, 2005
how and why...
no matter what i do, no matter what i learn and experience, part of me is always inquisitive, asking how and why. i want to know. i seek understanding. i find i want to know how and why more than i want to know what, because you know what? i know what, but i dont know how and why...

abstract thinking... i'm getting caught up in jeffersonian thought, but i find i cant avoid it. to know something is not enough for me; i have to have a working knowledge of it. i want to completely understand the knowledge i acquire. that is where i get my satisfaction. i like hands-on experience.

i also find if i do not want to know the how and why of a subject then i probably dont even want to know about the subject. its an all or nothing curse. thats been speculated to be laziness, but i disagree. i feel like i cant be bothered with things that dont take my interest. maybe thats selfish, but it seems we got to be a little selfish sometimes.

funny that i should say that since i am more of a giver than a taker...