why i disappear from posting regularly on here...

 I believe I have covered this before in past blogs: things happen, motivation, depression, lack of having something to say I find valid enough to post about, waiting for closure on something before I post, forgetting to post, and so on. For me, it's usually a combination of two or more of these things that inevitably lead me to withdraw and shutdown emotionally and subsequently cease my usual activities. Such is never truer than in the past several years due to sequence of related and unrelated events. I will reveal these events in the following posts...